I want to walk in His ways...

Ezekiel 40, 41
Psalm 128
Revelation 21

SOAP - I want to walk in His ways...

Scripture: Psalm 128:1
Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in His ways.

Observation and Application
I really like the beginning of this Psalm. Usually I'm kinda neurtral to scripture that talks about "fearing the Lord". It doesn't really throw me off like some of the harsh old testament stuff, but I don't really know what it looks like in my life for me to "fear the Lord". But for some reason today this scripture was just what I needed, a comfort to me really. Yesterday was not a proud day for me. I don't even begin to know where I went wrong, but it was not a pretty sight. From the moment my eyes open to pretty much the moment I fell asleep... I haven't been that grouchy, angry, frustrated, etc in a long time. I was mad at God. I was mad at Hugh's job. I was mad at my job. I was totally lacking compassion for anyone. I was really really mad at myself... for being mad. I hate days like that. It's embarrassing (even if no one ever knows) and definitely not productive or fruitful. I felt like a little kid that just went totally crazy and had a temper tantrum. So, this morning, when I read the words "fear the Lord" it made me think of a father figure, one who is VERY VERY loving, but also one who you wouldn't dare pitch a fit in front of... because you have a kind of healthy fear of him. He keeps you in check. Yeah, I feel a little pathetic thinking that I need someone to keep me in check. But at the same time I'm sitting here wondering how it is that I've never really seen my dependence on God this way before. Duh, of course I need Him to help me. It's a comfort to me to know God is there, loving me. And I think I have a better understanding of what it looks like to "fear the Lord". I don't think I can really write exactly how I feel right now, but it's definitely an improvement over yesterday, it's hopefully involving an appropriate amount of fear of the Lord, and it's so cool that He will still help me after a day like yesterday. :-)

Prayer
Dear Lord. Thank you for your words this morning that have given me some comfort in the midst of me being a total grouch. Thank you for the love you offer us. I offer you myself today Lord. I want to walk in your ways, perhaps a little healthy fear will help me do that. Amen.